Somehow, even after 15+ years in photography, it feels like I’m just now starting. Not in the “starting over” way — I’ve put in too many miles for that. But more like I’m finally clicking into alignment with what I’ve been trying to do all along. Like all the past years were the prelude, and now the actual score is beginning. And that might sound strange, but if you know, well, you know.
What I do know for certain is that face-to-face connection will always be number one. You can’t fake the energy in the room. You can’t replicate a shared silence, or a laugh that breaks tension, or that unspoken vibe between two people creating something real. That’s where all the nuance lives — in person, in the moment. And as much as I appreciate what technology has given us, it will never replace that. It never could. Time to get back out there, methinks.
I’ve also come to realize I’m more comfortable than ever with the uncertainty of the creative life. I don’t mean I enjoy not knowing things — I mean I’ve learned to stop resisting it. The need to control every outcome is exhausting. So these days I’m focused more on showing up and doing what’s in front of me, and letting the rest play out as it’s going to.
The next (roughly) two years are going to change a lot — in my life, in my work, in the way I approach just about everything. I’m not in some dramatic reinvention arc, I’m just genuinely evolving stlll – some days it feels like it's faster than I can keep up with. And all of this (more or less) means pulling the trigger on some long-delayed moves, letting go of a few things that don’t fit anymore, and leaning fully into what I know I’m good at — with no hedging, no over-explaining.
At this point, it's almost as if I know what I’m doing. Time to just do more of it.